LARRY

i literally trained all my life to go to college on a scholarship and go pro, and then i got the scholarship… and then i dropped out 😜 it used to make me so sad seeing all my old teammates or friends i played with enjoy their college experience with soccer, or even go pro later on. i used to get so jealous and blame it on unfairness, like “oh, they came from so much money,” “oh, their parents are so rich and have all these connections,” “oh, her dad is best friends with the coach,” blah blah blah, like such a sore loser mentality. soccer was my only focus for years and took up so much of my life. it would make me so furious and frustrated seeing people doing better in the only thing i was good at. i went through a phase where i genuinely hated the sport because i was blinded by my jealousy and just consumed by the feeling that i wasted so much of my life. i remember i cut off everyone i knew over the 15 years i played soccer because it would enrage me, like when i was 20, i would often think, “how did i go from talking to college coaches every day and planning my future career with them, to dropping out and waitressing at a local restaurant near my house?” eventually, i learned to accept that it just wasn’t the path for me, and harboring those negative feelings wasn’t going to make anything better. i learned a lot from playing, and now i look back on those memories with gratitude rather than hatred. i look back now, and i kinda miss playing instead of wishing i never did. regardless, the track i’m on today is more than i could’ve ever imagined for myself, and the rest is still lowkey unwritten bro.

#grwm of agony and despair, but i’m still employed sooooo i gotta wrap it up for a couple hours

did my curly hair routine for the first time in like a month

another oat post #larryandoatmeal

#grwm #larry

i just wanted to post pics from my bday :p

Replying to @yohanna girl i’ve been and stayed bad like hello

shes literally like 8

i wasn’t gonna post this cuz i didn’t have all my makeup but it’s ok

i’ll be crying while snot comes out of my nose bc it’s boiling hot and spicy, but it’s so good. i literally come to this pho spot to eat by myself, and i walk out looking like a mess everytime. #worthit asf tho like look how good that bowl looks bro. i’m about to order it again to take home.

#grwm for the first time this week lol. i’ve felt so horrible the whole week, but getting all ready and seeing the end product felt good.

@kyan

#oaticemeal #larryandoatmeal

#haul from today 😛😛

i have the motivation to talk now but not enough to do my hair…. so not too much on my hair #grwm #larry